dont let me go;;

i feels tired...

like i want to give up all over again...

be a coward. just. just pick up the blade and tear my wrist into pieces like i used to... i dont know what's holding me back still... maybe its the like long period of stagnation from using the blade on myself so now im just kind of... i dont know anymore.

i feel like. i dont know. it feels like no one ever sees [me]. no one ever realizes that im trying that. im really REALLY trying. i need that appreciation and understanding so much. but i get it from no one...

im tired...