tiredness.

there is this great inclination to shut up and go away.

i really dont need this from you now. but do you ever understand that? no. obviously not. you're not that clever.

sighs. its always the case of one problem on another. besides the problems piling on top of one another... and of course emotions pile up along with those problems.

i get tired too easily nowadays. i dont know why. seems that if i can stay up late so long every night... i would have gotten used to it by now right...? but no... evidently that's not the case for me. sighs.

i feel so weak inside. after all those defence mechanisms built up after all this while... why has it just crumbled again...? im just waiting.